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I'm always jealous of how people can enjoy their lives out there. Hang out with their friends and loved ones, do their hobbies and try out new things. Meanwhile I'm just stuck in this room. I can't even do the things I want or express how I feel. I don't hangout with my friends because my parents won't give me permission (I guess that's why they leave). I got blamed for almost everything that happens in the house. And my parents are always mad at me for being lazy and stay in my room all day.
Btw I'm a student at uni and in my 7th semester rn. My dad told me to choose between continuing my study or going abroad to look for a job. So I chose to continue my study cause I'm still 16 and I don't have an id at that time. They said just choose a university with an online learning method, so I did. Everything went smoothly at first. But now I don't read my books and haven't done any of my assignments since semester 5 because I'm depressed. I don't even know how I passed. The exam is coming soon and I haven't prepared anything. I'm scared if I failed they would be so mad at me :")