Stupid Mistakes

Hey all,

Just wanted to vent about a silly mistake that I made years ago. I had gotten a job in a local radio station with no experience, long story short I really suffered with a lot of anxiety at the time, crying in my car going to work ect, one day I really struggled after a woman phoned in to tell my boss I'd been unprofessional during an interview when I thought I was trying my best. I completely freaked out. I decided the only thing to do was to write a letter pretending to be my employer saying that I was getting a warning and that my behavior would need to improve and show it to my parents, basically saying that they would let me go anyway and that I should quit. My parents half looked at the letter and let me make the choice to leave. Anyway two weeks later I finished up at the job and didn't look back, tried to get a job and ended up in two great jobs, I was so happy it was over, I didn't even think of the lie I told for multiple years.

Anyway recently, my two grandmother's passed away, pretty much one after the other in a few months, at the wake, someone asked me about the radio job - I was shocked and just said I make more money in my current job and moved quickly on with the conversation. Anyway, about a month has passed and I can't stop thinking about this lie and the horrible stupid thing I did, it's the first thing I think of when I wake up and the last thing I think of when I fall asleep. I don't understand where it's come from, and I have never told a soul about it, nobody understands how much I was struggling so it would make no sense to say it now, but I'm suddenly terrified someone will find out, I told everyone the same story because I was so ashamed I wasn't good at the job.