Numbness and Failure
I can't remember things going well for me ever since I left highschool. I struggle with cycles of depression and anxiety. Half the time I can't sleep or eat and I cry and the other half I sleep and eat too much and I'm numb. I'm dissociating from the world. I'm very high functioning so only a few people know what's really going on. I don't know what to do. These days (weeks) I want nothing. I don't want to work, I don't want to go back to school and I used to love both. Most days, I don't want to do anything and I feel I'm throwing my life away. I feel like I'm failling at life.
@sweetpotato300 I can relate completely. I don’t have anything else to say. And I am 47. I feel exactly the same like you described.
i think it’s because I am so tired of being judged and living up to other people’s expectations. Tired of failing to live up to my own expectations. And I don’t know how to change that.
Living up to your expectations is something to explore. I feel like I need to reset them. I had expectations, but I was asking myself for perfection.
