New & Lonely
New here or at least this is my first post. I’m tired of feeling like I’m fighting my battles alone and was told by my therapist this is a good place for support. I agreed to give it a try, so this is me doing just that.
@Srrg2000 hi I'm lola ❤❤ welcome to forum land ❤ depression really sucks🙁 but remember if the world didn't suck we'd all fall off 😁❤ the forums are very supportive, and you can make lots of friends here, I'm sure your gonna fit right in and hopefully find all the support you deserve, gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤ everything will be ok ❤
Hi Lola, I’m Rebekah! You’re so sweet. Thank you. I hate how depression convinces us we’re all alone in this. I’m thankful for things like this and people like you to remind me it’s just my mental illness saying that and not reality. People always say everything will be ok, I’m trying to trust them and have the patience to see it for myself. In my “Everyday’s a struggle” era ✌️🙃
@Srrg2000 awww I know 🙁 mental health really sucks. But hey! You got us now ❤ never be afraid to reach out, in the days you need someone the most ❤ gives you a giant tiny hug ❤ how are you settling in so far??
I’m settling in ok I guess. I think I got the gist of it. Thank you Lola! I’ve got a psychiatrist appointment this evening and I’m really stressing over it, so your generosity is greatly appreciated today! 🫶
@Srrg2000 ohhh! It's ok to be nervous and panicky. I've been seeing my therapist for a while now and I hate to tell you, but those nerves happen with every appointment😂😂 goodluck let me know how it went ❤ hugs you tightly sending love your way ❤
He upped my meds and wants to try TMS on me. Pending insurance approval though. Kind of scares me. Just real nervous about all this and I feel so very alone in this. I hate it. I hate being me. I’m tired of feeling this way.
What’s TMS?
Transcranial magnetic stimulation. Sounds bizarre but apparently harmless.
@Srrg2000
Hello and welcome. This is a great place to find people who have or had the same experiences as you. 7 Cups makes me feel like I'm not alone and there are others who suffer like me.
I agree with you in regards to being tired of fighting alone. Does it matter how many people have around me. That’s how I feel. Maybe we can find people who understand us because it seems no matter how many people I reach out to the battle doesn’t change your therapist may be right I don’t know, but I feel like you often. At least I think I do.
It’s a really *** feeling. No matter how many people say they care or love me I still don’t feel it. I guess it’s my fault though. I don’t feel worthy enough to accept it. Idk but I do know that it sucks feeling so alone in such a big world. It sucks to have to drag yourself through everyday and act like everything’s fine. It sucks to always feel like a disappointment and that you’re not good enough. It extra sucks when the world confirms it. I’m just tired of fighting. This has been a long battle and I don’t feel I’ve made any progress. At what point is it acceptable to just give up?
I guess it depends on what you mean by just give up.
@Srrg2000 ok that's good ❤ I'm glad he upped your meds, and that treatment sounds like a good thing. I hate that you have to worry about insurance when it comes to your health, it's not fair bless you🙁 I live in the UK so it's all free, I'm very lucky. But try to keep your mind of that part, things are starting to move in the right direction ❤ have you calmed down ok? After the appointment anxiety?? You had a busy day yesterday, so today, just relax. Self care day ❤ gives you the biggest hug evverr ❤ I'm here if you need to talk ❤
Maybe calmed down a little but still feeling like I’m in survival mode a majority of the time. This week has been long and it’s not over yet. I have so much left to do and next week is even busier. I’m really hoping the increase in meds starts showing soon because I’m tired of constantly feeling overwhelmed. I feel trapped with no end in sight and that always leads to dark and scary thoughts.
How are things for you? I’ve never been to the UK but I’d love to visit it sometime. Just to experience it once. I’m also so jelly of your free healthcare lol. I know about it but it’s still such culture shock to me. It’s crazy the differences that each countries has but also very fascinating.
@Srrg2000 just take it slow, one thing at a time. I know that's not how the brain works, but reminding yourself if that might keep you from getting to overwhelmed. Sorry for the late reply, I haven't been here much the past 2 days, I haven't been feeling well. I think I'm coming down with something. Yeah, it's not good is it, all countries should have free healthcare, that's one thing noone needs the worry off. Have the meds kicked in properly yet?
Idk if the meds have kicked in properly yet. I’m still a complete mess and struggling to get through the days. Making progress I guess but gosh I just feel so raw at this point. How does one keep going?
I hate to hear you’ve not been feeling well! I hope it’s just a virus and passes quickly! I hope you wake up tomorrow and feel 100% better!
@Srrg2000
You know what helps me keep going? Helping and loving others <3 I try to love on people on 7Cups as much as I can <3
@Srrg2000 hey! Don't worry about me, I'll be fine 🙂❤ give it a bit longer, hopefully they'll kick in soon. Sometimes it can take a few weeks. I really wish there was something I could do to take away all your troubles. Gives you a giant tiny hug ❤ I know it's hard, but your doing really well ❤ I'll continue to keep you in my prayers ❤