Motherhood and exaustion

The urgency to seem fine, the constant effort to be someone else,

The perfect mother, always beautiful wife, studying, working

Today I freaked out

In the morning, I wake up and hurriedly get ready along with my baby. My husband slept peacefully all night in another room, and just as peacefully, he goes to work. I organize all the morning snacks, and leave late because of the babysitter’s schedule. I return, and the baby is already crying to be breastfed. I need to organize the rooms because my husband leaves everything on the floor (underwear, socks), leaves all the cabinets open, dental floss in the sink, and papers on the floor. This stresses me out so much.

These last few days I’ve been sick, taking care of my son alone as always. We were getting ready to go out, and the room was all messy… I exploded. His response was that I’m crazy, ‘you ruined everything!’. Guys, I can’t take it anymore, I’m so tired. Note that my baby falls asleep breastfeeding; he says it’s my fault because I haven’t weaned him