I've lost all hope for a better life
I posted a thread about being gay and my parents finding and getting abused by literally everyone in my family, well now I'm about to go to college, I was happy about it at first, at least I'll have a little bit peace of mind, but now I just found out that they've already chose a school for me which is closer to them, so that they can keep a short leash on me, and I can't do *** about, I have thought about running away but I have no where to go, no money to start up my life, so I have to endure the abuse and all the *** they do to me, just to make me "normal". Currently I don't know how to feel or what to do, I can't get help from the authorities cause I leave in a third world country, I came to this app to get someone to talk to and honestly It seems no one really understand me..đź–¤
@quietTangerine613, I'm sorry you have to go through this. You don't deserve it. There is nothing wrong, and they shouldn't treat you this way. I just want you to know that you're not alone here. If you ever want to talk about your feelings or anything, I'm here. I truly hope that people will be more understanding. Take care. ♡
@quietTangerine613
Hi. I am not gay, but I guess I was in the same shoes when I was young and my parents wanted me to be a Catholic ("like everyone in this country").
My mother was expecting me to go to church every Sunday. Me and my brother usually just took a long walk instead or went to watch some free hockey matches (though I've never been too fond of sports, too). My mother refused to sit at the same table with me if I didn't go to confession before Christmas. And my father (not being too Catholic himself) gave me the last beating when being 14 I failed to prepare to Confirmation.
To make a long story short, it does not feel good at all when your parents love you "on condition that...". It's a difficult period in life, when you are growing and feel like adult, but still not being legally and finding independent. Most people want good life for their children, but sometimes they understand it wrong way.
*financially independentÂ
