It Hit Me Hard

Back when I was in 8th grade (10th now) I went through alot. I thought the depression I was feeling would go away, just like I was told. It's been almost 3 years now and I still wish it would go away. I have tried alot to cure my depression, but nothing works. Some days I wish it would just go away because people I meet think I'm lazy because I have little motivation. It hits me hard when people start yelling at me to change. I can't do it though it hurts trying to do everything people want me to do. While my mind is just numb trying, but never getting it done like they want.