Introduction of a depressed Raccoon

Heyho! :D

First of all, I wanted to thank y'all for providing this community here. Such an amazing thing to have; thank you!

I haven't fully Figured out how the app works; apologies if I post this here in the wrong place or so - please let me know!

About me:

Hey, I'm Niko - I'm 24 years old and I study IT in Germany! I'm part of the furry fandom where I'm a raccoon, hence the title x3

Starting with University, I had my first experiences with depression. I didn't notice it until i Was deep in it. Back in 2019 I went into stationary therapy, was diagnosed with major depressive disorder. Half a year later i was in normal therapy until 2022 when I was released as healed.

I learned a lot and a lot of Things got much better. But I still had a lot of struggle to get University going. Now, 2 years later, I crumble under the constant pressure that I am putting on myself and can't keep it going anymore. Recent weeks the emotional flood came down on me. Can't get myself to Do anything for University anymore, often tired; no ibterest in other Things, feeling how I start to get numb again in different ways...

I'm on search for a psychologist. But I often struggle with my emotions and cry in silence. I was hoping to share my Feelings here with others who can understand what it feels like to want to cry out in help, but instead you use your last energy and hold it back because you kmow it's not worth it to pull other people into this that have no idea about what it is like.

I'm also very open to Listen to others ^-^ I think participating in this community here will do me good until I have a psychologist that takes care of me. And hopefully I come back one day but as listener to help others achieve the same! :D

Thanks for reading all of this, have a good time! I"m looking forward to meet y'all~

-Niko