I need help but I can't get it, shouldn't get it
I'm entirely alone, stuck in this house full of screams and pain and constant fear that I won't get anything right
Everyone thinks I'm fine; I listen to their problems, I help them, I care but when I need support noone notices, noone helps
I deserve this. I never did anything good enough to deserve a life of happiness or kindness
I didn't earn joy
And I never will.
@DkIfINeedHelpOrSleep
I think you deserve so much more credit...
You help, you listen, you support, you are clearly the leader, the supporter, the love, and the glue. This is earning a significant, important life, and deserving joy too.
This is not a happy thought, but it is a validating one: Sleep deprivation is a form of torture that breaks even the strongest people in the world. It makes every problem worse than it actually is. It breaks you sometimes because it breaks everyone, even strong people like you.
I'm praying for you that you get some real sleep, and know that your life makes a difference, your life really matters, you are important, you are love.
Hugs and prayer for real... honest, yelling, crying, truthful holding nothing back prayers are amazing!!! And I'm praying for you!!!
I feel the same like you. But I think it's not fair for anyone like us to feel like this. Even if nothing is helping. We should try.
