I miss her

Recently my best friend and I’s friendship ended over the fact that I had told her about how I felt as if she wasn’t putting effort into our friendship, while I was putting my heart and soul into it. She told me how she stopped reaching out because I always left her on read or delivered, which I know I had never done. I would always respond quickly to her, if anything I was always so excited to talk to her. I was always texting her about dumb stuff and asking her if she wants to hangout (which she would always make a reason not to) And that isn’t some pitiful, “I’m the victim not you!” But I genuinely failed to see how I am the one at fault? If she had truly felt this way, talk to me about it. That’s what friends do, communicate. It makes me disappointed. I should be mature, tell myself she wasn’t a good friend and forget about her. But she was my only friend, my first choice, my favorite person. But now I understand I was never hers, and that hurts.