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@StarryJem

When everything feels fuzzy it is so hard. I can relate. I am so sorry.

If you started getting help a year ago, is it possible that you were given some medication? Once I was prescribed medication and the doctor tried the best they could but it made me feel just like you described, I felt hopeless and fuzz/foggy/scattered, worse than before. 

It really helped me to talk to somebody or to write out my feelings in a journal, and then ask people for advice like right here. 

The best way for me to break through the dark clouds was to not hold the feelings inside. I didn't even know what was going on in my body why I felt so bad, but just to tell someone so I didn't feel alone, then I was able to figure out how I needed to change medication, get outside and walk every day, and always write how I felt in a journal, and always try to talk to someone or write on 7cups everyday so that I felt connected to people. And that helped me break through the fuzz.

I am really truly praying for you right now, for God and Jesus who love you so very much. 

@StarryJem

I hear you, and I’m really glad you’re sharing this with me. It sounds like you're carrying a heavy weight, and I want you to know that it’s completely okay to feel scared and overwhelmed. It’s understandable that you feel frustrated, especially after seeking help and feeling like things have worsened.

When you mention that your thoughts are getting fuzzy, it sounds like you might be experiencing a lot of internal chaos. That can be really disorienting and frightening. It's crucial to honor those feelings and recognize that they’re part of what you’re going through.

If you're open to it, let’s talk about what you’re feeling right now. Are there specific moments or triggers that seem to lead you to those darker thoughts? Sometimes, identifying patterns can help you feel a bit more in control.

And remember, it’s okay to take things one day at a time. If you ever feel overwhelmed, think about small actions you can take, like stepping outside for fresh air or listening to music that comforts you. What helps you feel even a little better on tough days?

You deserve support and understanding as you navigate through this. You’re doing the best you can, and it’s perfectly okay to seek connection and express what you’re going through. I’m here for you.