I am desperate

I have been feeling depressed for about a year and a half. I feel completely empty and alone, and, to be honest, I don’t know what to do. I want to get better, but I don’t know how. I don’t have the motivation or energy to do anything. I started neglecting my hygiene, stopped sleeping, lost the will to do anything, and I just stay at home because it’s the only thing I can manage.

I tried calling a help line, but I didn’t feel comfortable (which sounds stupid if what I want is to feel better), so I don’t know if I will try again.

I feel like I’ve reached the lowest point of my life, like I’ve truly exhausted my mental strength, and I’m scared of what I might do as a desperate measure in this state.