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It takes so much time and energy to heal. I can understand your struggle.

It took me multiple years of trying different medications and therapy. Lots of time it was hard to even just be.

But I got there by forcing myself to keep trying lots of things to find what fit best for me. I wasn't a meditator like some people. But I did a lot of group singing which helped. I also started doing online jigsaw puzzles and coloring. Making sure that I was eating food and drinking water were also pretty critical. I also found that getting outside changed everything. But my brain wanted to keep telling me that all these things wouldn't help. I had to stop listening to that inner voice of pain slowly but surely by getting out and doing stuff no matter how bad that I felt. @Sashadew90