Hate is a strong emotion for a reason

You see, Its not easy to hate. But when someone say I hate that person that means he or she master must have some solid reason to hate that person. I hate every single man I have loved. Or thought to love. I hate them. I simply hate them. everyone of them. because they hurt me brutally. cheated on me. Ghosted Me. gaslighted me. I suffered a lot Because of them. I am still suffering. Why I dont know how to live alone? Why? Anyone can tell me how I wont feel the need of anyones presence?