Feeling terrible
I don't even know why but I feel terrible. I've had a very *** 2.5 years going on but thing seem(ed?) to be going better yet I feel like complete ****. Am in therapy and she's so great but also recently started a job a month ago which is good sometimes and feels less so at other times. Really not sure why I'm in such a funk rn it sucks usually zi at least know why I'm feeling bad but I guess not today. Sorry just needed to vent I'm not sure what is going on (not suicidal or anything just stressed)
Hi there @KittyKeats! I'm glad you're reaching out.
You mentioned you were feeling stressed, so I want to start off by offering some of our free resources about stress that are available here on 7 Cups, just to make sure we here at 7 Cups can offer you all the support we can. Don't forget you can always browse Listeners at: https://www.7cups.com/BrowseListeners/
I'm glad you feel safe to vent here and don't forget that 7 Cups is a safe, nonjudgmental place to do so. 😄
@empatheticpie
Thank you, I'll explore the links you posted, I appreciate it
Feel free to vent all that you need to. We all have really bad days that come out of nowhere. They aren't your fault.
Were things a bit better today?@KittyKeats
@bestVase7265
Sorry about the late reply! I typed the above at night in kind of frustrated haze. I don't feel a whole lot better but also definitely not worse so that is something. Really appreciate people taking the time to read my ramble and reply, so thank you
I read rambles any time. If you keep adding them to this thread, I will answer a little more quickly. And not being worse is always a victory. @KittyKeats
@KittyKeats
well, more ****, I just got laid off my job even tho I was doing good work due to fact that I was outsource worker which apparently cost more so they cut me. Feel so terrible, even tho job wasn't always the greatest I really grew into it the past 2 months and now I'm stuck at home again after 2 years of having done so and I hate it already. would like some good stuff to come my way pls pls
I am so, so sorry to hear about the job. That sounds quite frustrating.
It doesn't say anything about you as a person. It sounds like they would be able to give you a good recommendation.
There are other good jobs out there, even ones that are better than the one that you had. But give yourself a little time to process this one. @KittyKeats
How have things been lately?@KittyKeats
@bestVase7265
A bit, thank you for checking in on this thread. I usually go here when I'm reeeeally low to vent like which is now again sadly. But thanks for thinking about this ramble thread rly appreciate it
I will always try to answer. It is great to have a place to vent. @KittyKeats
@KittyKeats
Woke up in an anxiety haze again hate hate those. Search for work is going meh hope to land SOMETHING I like. Freakin feel disconnected so much a lot of the time from people I guess and it sucks. Rly want to feel better as a whole that would be nice
The job hunt is unbelievably hard with any kind of anxiety and depression. Do it in little fits and starts, but get plenty of time also doing things that fill you up a bit. What kinds of hobbies do you have?@KittyKeats
@bestVase7265
I play guitar a bit, and have some silly things I collect on the side but do kind of like even tho it's all a bit dumb
I've since applied for a new job and been in a conversation with them for FIVE WEEKS and still seems like they can't tell me conclusively whether I can start. They want me to work a third "try-out" shift to see if it's gonna be a thing but whole process is so vague it's kind of putting me off. Thinking of telling them that I'll try 1 more shift since I'm empathetic to them seeking a good fit (it's a job I don't have a lot of experience with) but after that I don't think I can prolong this so hopefully it works out
That sounds like a good plan.@KittyKeats
@KittyKeats
Hope you are feeling better these days. You can feel free to reach out to me if you ever want some listening - take care, George.
@KittyKeats
update, I'm in therapy but it's been really messy the last few weeks sadly. Messaged my therapist for something innocuous which APPARENTLY was a big thing since she seemed a bit angry talking to me on the phone and now I feel bad talking to her since I'm not sure she's into me I guess. Trying to not take it personally but it sucks
also the search for a job is a bit of a crapfest. I MAY be landing a position on something that looks kind of cool to me but the process to get there is taking waaay longer than I'd like to (4 weeks at this point, they want to be sure it's a good fit blabla so I'm working paid try-out shifts) so hoping they will tell me something conclusively soon.
@KittyKeats
Another day more ****. Feel so out of sorts right now
Therapy feels completely screwed. I really felt like I had a place there and now? I just don't know. That was one of the last thread I had to some place where I had ties, which means of course it had to unravel.
Feeling so dark and miserable. Not really sure how to advance since all I do is seemingly **** things up more. Hate all of this so much and just looking for something to go right.
I am so sorry that therapy went bad for you. Sometimes the relationships just evolve in weird ways.
Have you thought about looking for someone new to work with?@KittyKeats
