@cyanTurtle8500
No one can tell you how to find your happiness..... because happy is different for everyone....
What is portrayed as happy from media/ advertisers/ movies and tv are simply not real ....
So many think if only this or that happens ......or we get some item....... but in the end we are still not happy.........
maybe we go do something and wonder what is the big deal this is not fun or happy i have even seen looks on peoples face pretending because ... this is suppose to be "it" even if we do not feel it....
When you find yours .... you will know and it does not have to make ANY sense to anyone else.