Dear Mom

Dear Mom,

Thank you for making me feel worthless all the time. Thank you for not appreciating the things I do. Thank you for always getting me wrong. Thank you for being overly controlling even that I'm over 25. Thank you for letting me feel my value is just based on what I can give you financially. Thank you for not seeing how tired and mentally distressed I am. Thank you for not being happy when I feel I deserved to be happy. Thank you for not listening ro my stories. Thank you for not trusting my decisions, and for telling that you're decisions are the right ones. Thank you for always making me feel my siblings and other people are better than me. Thank you for not seeing the tears I shed when I have no one to run to. Thank you for calling me "crazy" and "abnormal" when I informed you that I was clinically diagnosed with GAD and OCD. Thank you for always blaming me for my father's death even if I didn't do anything. Thank you for teaching me to believe that I am weak and not capable.

Thank you for showing me who you really are.

Someday, I will have a reset in life, and no one would hurt me like you are doing now.

Sincerely,

Your Daughter whom you never wanted.

P. S.

When I was young, I heard you telling to other people that you intended to abort me while I was in your tummy. I know you are not perfect, but you still raised me. With that, I am truly thankful. I still consider you a good mother, but it will not change the fact that you are the cause of my deepest wounds.