Dead end
My life seems to have reached a dead end. Best relationship, the first time I felt really accepted, just ended during long distance. Job is unbelievably toxic and I swear they don’t want me. Ex from a while ago manipulates me about my son. He’s 14. I do my best for him, but she made sure my partner was uncomfortably aware of her presence. Besides my most recent relationship, my boss and my ex-wife seem to see me happy (was very happy a few months ago) and want to crush that joyful way of being to join their heavy ranks. I’m living in Thailand and try as I might, hard to form meaningful friendships here. I’m trying to hold on, scared of giving up to go back to what in USA. Thinking about other possibilities in SE Asia because there’s just something I like out here. In a way, I’ve been accepted as I am, not too critical, but challenging to connect.
You're dealing with a lot—an ended relationship, a toxic job, and difficult dynamics with your ex. It’s tough when it feels like others are trying to bring you down, especially while living in a place you like but struggle to connect. You're doing your best for your son, and it’s okay to feel lost sometimes. You don’t have to have all the answers right now. Take your time, and remember that things can change.