Coping for the holidays ?

I feel so sorry for you. I hate being alone on holidays. I can't advice you on your relationships with your bf or family. The only thing I can tell you, try not to go deeper in your depression, cause this way your bf can really turn away from you. As for me, I like the atmosphere of holidays, that's why I try to make it at home. I've even contacted https://seventh-avenue.pissedconsumer.com/customer-service.html to order some decorations for holidays. I'd already like to have a Christmas atmosphere at home. Maybe some occupation like this help you a little.