Am I being delusional?
It's not the same me when I look at myself in the mirror...It's still hard for me to accept that the one who's staring at me is my own self..I wonder how'd I turn up like this....With the passage of time..instead of being better...it only got worse..I didn't get any stronger..I only broke more..my soul shattered more...my throat clogged more..my heart clunched more....and with their sayings...I've started to believe that I'm only being delusional......
@sympatheticShade5511
I think you're right. You are so much more than anything that a mirror can show. Nobody looking in the mirror sees their real self. CS Lewis wrote a book about heaven that speculates that our bodies will be reflections of inner light, who we have chosen to become, as we try to bring just a little light into the world, try to be kind even if many people aren't the same way to us.
I hope you look in the mirror, think of a few times you have really tried to be kind to people, and think that is who you really are. You made me think today, thanks for that, I'm going to write down on a small piece of paper and tape it to my mirror too, a few times I've been kind or helped people, and have that reflect back to me. Maybe a mess up alot, but that's who I want to be, I know I'm capable and you are too, so I'm going to look at that list. That's what I 'look like'.
we all know what matters is our inner self and soul....And Allah knows my heart better than anyone....I'm praying to heal..not to take people's words to heart...but when I do take them..it's really hard for me...