2025
HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE!!!!!! 🎆🥂🎁❤️
Prayers and prayers. May this year be bigger, brighter and blissful. May we all be safe, and happier.
Amen.
@querencia798 Happy New Year to you as well! Thank you for your post and I couldn't have said it better myself! ⭐
May this year be your best one yet, overflowing with love, health, and happiness! 💓
Happy New Year! It is nice to start a new thread for a new year.
I am glad that your New Year's was good and that you went out. I wouldn't worry too much about the dream. It is just a place where you store anxiety.
We had a pretty good New Year's Day as well. My sister and family visited and we went on a picnic. Nothing was too tense which was nice.
So far I am doing okay with the "slow down" a bit, though I am still rather anxious about how the year will unfold. But we are going to focus on the slowing down and not looking too far into the future. If you enjoy the day rather than worrying about what might happen less then you begin to feel more secure, settled, and successful in your present. It is never about what you do or some kind of timeline. It is always about being more satisfied with where you are.
@bestVase7265 it's great to hear that from you.
My life has been *** since the 19th. My father is creating troubles for me. First he didnt send me to malaysia. Mow he is backing off from the foundation I want to get admitted in. I'm mentally unstable, not as stable as I might sound like. He told me on the 19th that im wasting his money. Since then huge escalations happened, some where I went violent and hit him repeatedly. You can judge me for this and say I lose the ground. But I'm a mentally unstable person suffering from narcissistic abuse, hot and cold behaviour and it has made me agitated. Now just tonight we sat down to have a conversation. There he went on how he has no wish to get me admitted in the foundation programme but will still go ahead (let's see). He is a psychopath who says it'll al be my responsibilty to go for the foundation till a university that'll grant me scholarship after this. If I fail to in this foundation I don't know where I'll go. It isn't accepted in any unis in Bangladesh, only abroad. He says he will keep it written and avoid from all responsibilities if any obstacle comes in my path. I'm truly depressed, scared and agitated with his words. He said yes, but with a but. He is again saying some things are left to be talked tomorrow. What if he will flip again? What will happen to me. I don't know. I can't even type without crying. You can Google ncc L3ifdhs. That's the course I wabt to study. Am I doing anything wrong, risky by not keeping BD as an option which I will have with A-levels which I don't want to do because it'll take 2 years. Will I not get any scholarship with L3ifdhs? What will happen after a year. He drained me by speaking to me that way. I regret the fact that maybe if I had taken A-levels a year ago, I wouldnt be in this mess, but sadly that time is over and I don't know how much I'll be able to nail this foundation programme. Even if I do, what will be of my future self? And will I even be given a chance to start the foundation, given his on and off, hot and cold, flipping behaviour? I don't know. I hate the fact I charged on him violently but it was years of trauma that has made me this way. I don't know what should i do? Please help .
You are going to be okay. Work on the foundations program that you have gotten into. You are going to do better than you think. Your father is training you not to trust yourself by constantly blaming your mental illness. People who are mentally ill have just as much possibility of success as anyone else. I am mentally ill too and I have had a good amount of success. I refuse to let my illness stop me. There is no reason to let yours stop you.
You can believe in yourself even if your father doesn't believe in you. He may be paying for some things but that isn't a deciding factor on anything. He is being manipulative and you don't have to let him that far into your brain. You are smart and can handle the work.
I don't think any less of you for lashing out at him. It's okay. It happened and blaming yourself just makes it worse.
Take a deep breath. You can do this. Do you live at home while you are doing the program? The sooner that you can get away from your dad and his negativity the better. @querencia798