13
I’m not good at talking I usually keep my head down when I speak I hate talking I can’t look people in the eyes I haven’t been going to school I’ve had a record of not going but I know I’m not gonna make it this month I’ve already have a date set my cousin who’s closet to me will be gone to Hawaii for a bit I’ll do it then I feel empty which is cliche I’m not really complaining tho people have it worse then I do which is sad..I’m not going to see my 14th birthday and if I do I have no clue what I’m gonna do career wise I’m probably gonna be a drop out I’ll just be another failure to carry in my family they don’t really like my mom cause she has schizophrenia they don’t really talk to us because they see us as her kids her failures my cousin she complains to me how she has it worse then me which hurts me because she had a normal mom and a dad who buys her everything but she hate him I guess I see her reasons but I don’t really have anybody besides my little brother but he had other people which makes me feel happy knowing he’s not like me and will probably become something I just won’t see him accomplish things.
Hello little one,
13 is still little. You ought to be in school every day. I’m sorry for any lack of help getting there that you may be subject to. Please try to get there- it’s so important to graduate high school and middle school prepares you for that. The year is new still. You can do it.
There are so many possibilities for what you can do when you grow up. Maybe talk to your school guidance counselor for advice too? They are a resource for you and can help.
I had a phase of not liking to look people in the eyes too, but you can look past their ears or middle of their forehead. Many people have kind eyes that you may be missing out on by not looking directly at them at least part of the time.
Hope this helps. And hope you find hope. Love is fulfilling, I hope you give and receive love - with your family and friends and everyone.