Done.
I am hurting so bad every day. No I haven't every considered any kind of harm to myself and I don't think I would. Not sure I have a good answer for why it is just not ever something I would even look at.
I have reached a point that the people I talk to either don't understand or dismiss myself hirt because it is all I see and they don't see a way to talk to me really anymore because I don't see any light. Not sure how to see a glimmer.
I feel so broken...so lonely...
I realized that I am not sure I ever have believed that I will find love.
I don't believe in hope and honestly hate the idea of it.
At this point any have hope, it just takes time message might as well be salt in a very deep wound. I struggle every day to change to see better and different and all that means is I wake up in agony, struggling alone with self acceptance I don't think I will ever find...thinking if I saw one person that would look me in the eye and say you matter to me my whole life would change and I do not believe that will ever come, and that is something I have to force a smile and move on.
7Cups has been the one place I feel like I can be and slowly that has gotten harder and harder there are places of the site I don't feel I can be....but I have always been able to go and talk to listeners. Just reached my end there. I see no reason to go back. I see no place to be nothing but hurt and hatred. I know I need help. I am begging for it and people would rather run than show two seconds of care I am at an end.
@SaturnsOwn
I feel you. Im going through the same feeling and thought process as you.
@SaturnsOwn
i know exactly how you feel. I
@AyeAna
Not sure how I am supposed to do that....I want a place to be able to talk and honestly I won't do it very openly on the forums. I need people to talk to and don't see that will be there.
@SaturnsOwn
I get what you mean. Would be nice if this thing had private messaging. Since sometimes we dont want it all over forums. I use to be like that but I started to open up because it made me feel a little better & responses I got. It was a whole lot better then sucking it in. Depression really sucks! But I feel like we can turn it around after we find the root problem thats making us feel down.
@AyeAna
I agree and I want that....and honestly I would love the chance to talk to you but I am not putting me on the open forums. I have seen too much hate here to feel comfortable anymore. I struggle with the idea that I have judged and told I am wrong for things I want to be happy even on 7Cups.
Ana....you seem like I would be in a better place talking to you.
@SaturnsOwn
I totally understand I
