Big girls
My self esteem is low it’s at a -20 I know I’m probably being dramatic right but I dislike being the “fat” friend because, I always see my friends get guys this still hurts my feelings even though it happened weeks ago I can’t remember if it was the day before or after Christmas but I saw this really cute guy and me my coworker were talking about him and few moments later he ended up flirting w her fast ford to the next day he comes in and brings her flowers and wanting to buy her breakfast at that moment I never in my life wanted to cry so hard and in front of everyone I was proud of myself at that moment because I held it together until I got into the bathroom that knocked it from a -20 to a -100 I never felt so ugly in my life until that moment whenever I work w her all the guys want her “help” instead of mine I’m not trying to make it all about me or seem jealous because I’m not but it’s like if you need help I’m more then welcome to help but if u wanted to conversant w her that’s cool by all means go ahead but don’t make it seem like u need help when u really don’t if that makes sense
@Alexistexaass02 Hi, I hope you are doing okay. I'm really sorry to hear that you are feeling this way about yourself. I wanted to leave you a message because I understand what it feels like. I've struggled with my weight my whole life and it's not easy seeing your "pretty" friends get all the guys. I absolutely hate it with everything in me when my very skinny friend and I go to the gym and she says "I feel fat." I literally get so mad. I try to remember that she isn't talking about me, but about herself, but it still isn't fun to hear. I want you to know that you are beautiful the way you are and the right guy is going to come along and he is going to make you feel like the most beautiful girl on the planet, I promise you! Please be gentle with yourself. I'm rooting for you! 💜
Sending strength. That sounds like a really rough moment that you handled the best that you could.
What would it take to start seeing yourself in a new light? I bet that you are pretty right now, but it is really hard to see. What kinds of things do you like about yourself? @Alexistexaass02
It's sad feeling that way to be honest. Now I'm the skinny one getting those feelings when my friend is not so fat but she has a nice shape and beside her I look like a stick of broom, I don't know if you know that feeling but I find it hard to accept myself but I still can't hide the fact of that's what I am you know. I get body shamed a lot but I joke it out and act like all is well but within me I'm seeking for something to use to get fat a little or just increase in weight so I don't get body shamed. Sometimes when I go out and I'm looking so skinny among everyone I feel like I should enter my bag or just be invincible. That's why most of the time I don't like going out, I just want to stay on my own if a guy likes me, I get scared he might end up changing his mind or stuffs. That's only for my body, even in my face I don't know if I'm really pretty or it's just bcs of my dimples I get compliments. Girl! Being a girl is not easy! And to those girls that are proud of their good or bad physique they deserve some accolade. I'm trying to be that girl, so help me God.
