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Daily Check in for April 12th 2022

User Profile: kindcherry2
kindcherry2 April 12th, 2022

How was your weekend and if bad why?

What would you like to achieve the most today and why?

What kind of funny videos do you like to watch?

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User Profile: Dallady
Dallady April 12th, 2022

@kindcherry2


I’m upset and overwhelmed these days with passing of my grandpa, baba and her dog, step aunt Stacy and Auntie C, the loss of my relationship and housing and chronic conditions all in about the last year or so.

This weekend was bad because it felt like a lot of the grief was stuck and making me stuck and I couldn’t move through it. It’s like it feels impossible and I keep cycling into old ways.

I’m also trying so hard for so long now and feeling like it’s too late because I seem to be a failure. The meditations and visualizations and guided talks, counselling and courses and programs I’ve taken don’t seem to work.

And then I try reach to family I’m met with a very hard and intense energy or just ignored which throws me into chaos. I’ve asked twice for specifics and didn’t receive them! Why? I need to improve my communication skills somehow.

I need to find housing in like ten days and am having some feelings of nervousness and nausea. I’ve lost my housing a lot due to past trauma and stuff. I’m scared I won’t find a place to go and will lose all my stuff and be a failure.

Then when I became overwhelmed and needed to vent and have someone be there for me, I was instead rejected and abandoned and humiliated.

I’m doing my best and am trying to make my life work and failing at it. Does that make me a failure? What am I supposed to do?

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User Profile: kindcherry2
kindcherry2 OP April 13th, 2022

@Dallady

Hey Dallady,

I want to say first of all I'm sorry to hear about all your losses and my condolences to you. I wish I could give you a hug right now. I would be overwhelmed if I was you too. It seems like a lot of grief and pain to take in. You're so strong for being able to endure all this pain. I would understand why this weekend wasn't the best for you and that you felt stuck because of all the grief and pain you are going through. It isn't an easy journey and I know what it feels like to loose someone that was very special to you in your life.

I admire that you are trying to help yourself feel better by trying meditation and therapy and programs but it doesn't seem like that is the right fit. Maybe there is something out there that you haven't. I understand having a hard time reaching the family especially after loosing someone. They may not be ready to talk about the topic yet as everyone heals at different paces. Therapy can usually help with communication issues.

Finding housing sounds stressful as it is on its own. I believe that you can find the housing that you need. I know it isn't an easy process. Feeling nervous and naesuos is part of the anxiety you are experiencing which is normal. I would suggest doing some breathing and grounding excersises. Even if you don't find a place doesn't mean you are a failure. Just enduring all this pain shows how really strong you are.

I'm sorry to hear about loosing past housing due to trauma. I hope the situation is better than it was before. I'm sorry to hear that when you were the most vurnerable you were rejected and humilated. I know that hurts and no one deserves that. 7 cups is always here for you during these struggles. I'm glad to hear you are trying your best to feel like yourself again. It's okay if you keep failing. Keep on trying and eventually things will get better. No it doesn't make you a failure.



I’m doing my best and am trying to make my life work and failing at it. Does that make me a failure? What am I supposed to do?

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User Profile: Dallady
Dallady April 12th, 2022

I want to achieve a sense of peace and to know what I want today and know I deserve it.

@kindcherry2

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User Profile: kindcherry2
kindcherry2 OP April 13th, 2022

@Dallady

Hey Dallady,

I think you can achieve your goal today even though it may not be easy. You deserve to be happy and want today. I hope you feel better soon

I want to achieve a sense of peace and to know what I want today and know I deserve it.

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User Profile: Dallady
Dallady April 12th, 2022

I like to watch funny cat videos and romantic comedies and sometimes funny YouTube compilations.



@kindcherry2

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User Profile: kindcherry2
kindcherry2 OP April 13th, 2022

@Dallady

I love watching cat videos to and funny youtube complications those usually bring my mood up when I'm down. How about you?

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