Workplace hardships - Glad it is over now

I come from a family full of teachers, and educators. And it seems like destiny pushed me to pursue this career too. I thought I had an awareness of possible obstacles. I have access and immunity to turn for guidance if I need it. I would be able to handle it well enough.

But only a month into the job I realized how I have to portray a personality even outside college premises as a faculty. I had this pressure to “act in a particular manner in public places too” so that if any student saw me outside of college hanging out with my friends, shopping, and things like that.. they would not be able to take me lightly later. Because according to me, if they perceive me as a light-hearted kind person it won’t be easy for me to set boundaries and decorum in the classroom. I started to become so conscious of my appearance and actions that it felt too heavy on my shoulders. Very soon I realized, I am not built to put up an act for a job. I felt suffocated and under too much pressure. I was too hard on myself. Having money because of the job became secondary which I thought was impossible for me to say before joining the job.

I was off from the 7-cups at those times (wish I stayed). Also, I could not reach and talk about it with anyone. Actually, I tried my best but did not find any comfort anywhere. Well, a few months later I ended up leaving that job and in hindsight only realized these things.

Today I thought, I should share this here. If anyone is going through the same they might be able to cope more systematically. I am Showing the cards that I had to deal with during my first job with the purpose of letting people know about one of the unpleasant possible scenarios. Now I know how important it is to talk through.

Suppressing, brushing it off, and pretending everyone has a rough job doesn’t make our situation better. Being aware and looking for support only helps in the long run.