Schizophrenia

i got diagnosed with schitsophrania a couple months ago and idk. i do know ill never be able to spell it right. its just real confusing having ur brain putting fake things into the real world. i kinda feel like someones just *** around with me for the fun of it cuz none of this can be real. dont know what to do.  its really messing with me just want everything to stop. i hate the way people look at me like theres somthing wrong with me but they dont know what. just want to be in blackness and darkness forever with the guy in my head for company. hes funny.