Hearing and seeing really terrible things
Hello everyone
I have been hearing and seeing things for 7.5 years. At first I was very ashamed to report it but it was very bad in 2021, so I got myself admitted to the hospital. I suspect that someone or some organization is doing these terrible things to me. However, the doctors insist it's psychosis.
I see a woman with a wig constantly speaking to me, controlling my mind and body. She knows everything about me, my childhood, schooling, college, work, marriage everything. She uses all that information to control and abuse me physically and mentally.
She hurls racist abuses against me (BTW, I am a Hindu Indian) calling me a black, a Jew. She calls me a male (I am a female) and constantly points to my groin saying I have a black ***. She points at my nipples constantly saying I am black. She forces me to have sex with her and keeps showing me images of females. Even when I go out she shows me females and forces me to ***. She attacks me as a transgender. She passes gas through my body to humiliate me some more. She passes really bad breath and forces me to have sex with that foul breath. She says she is me. She says my family is hers. My grandfather whom I adored and revered, she says is hers. She also says my father is hers. She says she is a Hindu Brahmin. I can clearly tell that she is an American (I live in Texas). She says she has the rights to marry Hindu Brahmin males (BTW, I used to be married to a Hindu Brahmin).
She knows how I was brought up in India with culture and dignity, it seems she is *** bent on destroying my self image and reducing me to a bum. I am even afraid she may succeed.
She looks like an uneducated person but she is well versed in all the sciences. my field is Computer Science. I have a Master's. But she far surpasses my knowledge in the field. She also knows medicine very well. She attacks my respect for education and tells me she has knowledge of all sciences and fields even though she is uneducated.
I spend my days in complete fear of her. Her strategies change every minute. I cannot anticipate when she will attack, but attack she does. She may force me to *** any minute during the day that too by humiliating my very, my very being. Again, I very much suspect it's not psychosis, but rather someone practicing the occult against me in order to establish power over me. It's a female who is trying to establish her position over mine in an attempt to get males.
Most of society will dismiss me as silly or crazy but I have no way to convince anyone. Does anyone else suspect the use of occult against them which the doctors deem psychosis?
Thank you for listening to me
Hi, your hallucinations sound very frightening. I’m so sorry to hear that you’ve been having to deal with that for such a long time. I hope that the doctors have been helpful in providing some medicine and feedback. I myself have mild schizophrenia. I never had hallucinations, but heard a voice that wasn’t there once and had multiple delusions. The medicine helped my symptoms. Are you still having symptoms even on medication? That is really good that you checked yourself into the hospital. That took a lot of courage and insight. My divorce attorney convinced me to go to the hospital voluntarily after my ex husband filed for me to go involuntarily. He was never good at being kind - didn’t even ask me to go voluntarily first, just sprung the papers on me. Anyhow, good for you to have insight.
I can’t explain my delusions, but while I was having them, I did think with one that there was a government plot about something. Now I know my brain was just sick. I was under a ton of stress and just didn’t withstand it and had some predispositions probably.
Best wishes to you for a full recovery. I hope your symptoms can go away. If they don’t go away entirely, I hope you can build on the awareness of what is real and what is not.