Winter Blue's

As of right now I'm depressed, down about my life and my thoughts are against me at the moment. I keep trying to fight my thoughts because I normally don't think like this at all. When I'm depressed however, I think so negative and think that everyone hates me and that maybe the world would be a better place without me. I keep trying to get myself out there but since I'm deeply depressed and crying, I'm struggling.

Also suffer with Social Anxiety as well and it doesn't help manage my mood swings at all. To top if off my sleep patterns is a mess and having trouble sleeping. Each Winter I get so utterly depressed and than I get better once the spring happens and I know many people with bipolar disorder having hard time during different seasons. Mine sink so low during the Winter and I really wish I could have a friend to talk too. :(