What can I do?
Hi guys, my name is Jeremey. I've had bipolar pretty clearly from a young age as well as an anxiety disorder coupled with "a.d.d". When I was older (13) I started using allot of drugs, hard drugs. And I didn't stop until I was 20 when I got into trouble and after some incarceration time decided I needed to go to rehab. While there, through allot of psychologist, therapist, and social working I was also diagnosed with schizoeffective disorder that the doctors said would be a permanent thing to deal with because if the damage I've done. I have worked very hard to bring myself up to where I have and through three times literally dying, being the victim of rape and numerous assaults which have left me permanently damaged as well, I have over come everything and become the good person I knew I was... Now that aside... I have chosen to opt out of taking medication and to be honest marijuana had been better than the depakote, lithium, trazadone, and everything I've ever been prescribed.. So I've done that and it's been really well for a while until recently... Now I've undertaken allot of stress recently and I've been having some pretty outstanding retard moments in the relationship in having but I've handled more than this.... Why is everything going crazy... The ups and downs from my bipolar, the shadows and ghosts and bugs and crawling sensations and the colors from the schizoeffective, the randomness of my thoughts. The solitude.
@Jeremey113 sorry you have suffered from challenges since childhood. That must be a difficult situation to face.
I can understand how self medicating can be a short term fix that is appealing, but unfortunately it does not address the imbalances in the brain and can have a depressing hangover. The other drawback is that marijuana is illegal in most states and only some states offer medical marijiuana.
Even if it is legal where you are, it is difficult to know what to do if you have certain symptoms. So not only do you not have meds but you lose the professional expertise of a psychiatrist that prescribed the meds. Have you talked to your therapist and asked them what they think?
For anyone who is stable with meds and therapy, it seems wise to remain with what is working rather than experimenting with things that might make the situation worse.