Relations??? What relations ???

Since I was diagnosed and started the corrected treatment, a wall started to be built. My worst times were the mania circles, so I started feeling less “powerful”, “wonderwoman”... suddenly I just lost the courage to ask people out, or the security with my body.... my self steam dropped immensely. I am still dealing with this in therapy. I am a beautiful woman, better than in the past, but as I started the treatment I left the super crazy maniac behaviour, to the normal one.. and this is still very difficult to me... I cannot imagine myself in a relation right now... I still have my ups and downs and don’t want to hide from my partner my situation.... I take 5 meds a day... it’s not something you want to share with a person... so it totally affected my relations. With friends, only 3 or 4 know about it, and know all details.. they are enough...