New here and hoping to find hope

@Haylibug123 Make sure you look for all the positive things in life. Theres always something good to find. Look forward to everything good coming you way. Write down all the bad things you can think of, and rip the paper up into a million tiny peices, and throw them away.

@LIttlePerson147

Thank you... Just the fact someone took time to answer my post means a lot... I appriciate it so much.. Definitely going to try the paper thing.. If nothing else it will feel relieving...

You have a friend in me.

I’m the same way with my meds. I go off them and feel fine but, umm, other people notice the change in me so I go back on them. I’ve made a boatload of bad decisions during my manic phases. I know the guilt that I feel does make it seem like I am making all of the wrong decisions. Especially when my mania goes on for a long time. Like you, this happens when I am not on my meds. Don’t be lost. You are right here with people who understand what you are going through because we’ve been there ourselves. You are not alone in this, even though it feels that way.

@Haylibug123 the aftermath of my last hypomanic episode is making me struggle a lot with reasons to keep going with my life. I keep on reminding myself I need to stay alive and pay back some of the financial burden I caused my ailing parents. I keep on reminding myself to just work, live on the bare minimum, hug my blanket and keep on sleeping.