New diagnosis yet it isn’t new to me

I have always known I was bipolar,

it was a feeling I just knew.

I always struggled with depression but even more confusingly I have ALWAYS struggled with manic episodes too. I just never wanted this to be me being bipolar.

I don’t know why I was scared of the diagnosis.

after YEARS of trying different anxiety and depression medications to no avail, I finally decided it was time to seek further help. That’s when the dreaded diagnosis came.

I am bipolar.

I know it’s probably hard for you all to read me talk about how badly I didn’t want to be bipolar. I apologize. This is just how I feel.

I started taking vraylar this week.

I would love to hear y’all’s recommendations on medication that has been most effective for you. I know we are all different, I just hate feeling so uneducated on my diagnosis.

love always,

lilmissjaded 🥀❤️‍🩹