I had a manic episode today...
I started having an allergic reaction to something on my back and it was stinging but I couldn't emotionally handle what was happening. I freaked out. I started screaming at the top of my lungs, and bawling. I almost passed out from the exertion. At the end of it I threw things across the room, and then laid in bed for a few hours. It was scary, I lost all control of my own body. My mother was present through the whole thing, she didn't make matters better. It's getting harder to stop myself from violently hitting someone when I'm manic like this. I do it sometimes, hitting someone out of my bubble, getting them out of my face swatting them away etc angrily...but it makes me worried for whats going on in my head. sigh.
edited by Rain45 Moved to Bi-Polar support due to forum reorganisation
@freespirit09
I know it's been a while since you've been active but I truly hope you've gotten help. That sounds absolutely terrifying. Especially the fact that your mother didn't help. Sometimes it's hard for others to understand the swings and especially the manic phases. I'm not excusing her behavior. I'm just saying she may have felt helpless. Especially when you got violent and since you have a history of violence.
It sounds like you need to see a professional who can help you. I've found having both a therapist and a psychiatrist to be a great help. The therapist helps you deal with the swings and identify any possible triggers while the psychiatrist is able to prescribe mood stabilizers and whatever else you may need.
Good luck and I hope you do see this.
@freespirit09 I'm so sorry that it has taken so long for someone to respond to you.. *hugs* At times, physcial reactions freak us out as we just want things to be peaceful.. I'm sorry that it takes such a huge physical and emotional toll on you.. I hope you've been doing better since then <3 <3 Sorry again about the delay :)
