Undiagnosed Autistic Person

I have felt different my entire life. I'm 30 now and I feel likei hae undiagnosed autism. I've felt depressed and have had anxiety basically my entire life. I have taken many online exams such as the Aspie, and every time I take one of those exams they come back saying that I have autism. I have always been pretty anti social and have felt very geriatric for my age. I feel very alone and as life has progressed I've become more depressed and anxious. I started having panic attacks in my late twenties and have had hundreds of panic attacks in my life. I've been hospitalized numerous times for my mental health. Currently I'm broke financially and have had to move in with my dad after being homeless and living in my car for a few months. I feel like life is just falling apart and I am not capable of fixing it. Does anyone with autism ever feel these ways? I would welcome any support anyone is willing to offer. Thanks so much for reading this.

Jeremy