CBT fear
i finally have my first CBT appointment this week and I'm terrified. My anxiety is at its worst during one-to-one conversations so CBT is possibly my worst nightmare. I haven't been sleeping because of it and every time I think about it I feel physically sick and start shaking. My concentration has gone and I just don't know how I'm going to cope. I've read so many books about CBT in the hope that the more prepared I am the easier it will be (I'm a massive need with access to a Heath library.....) I'm really trying to resist the temptation to cancel, currently the only thing stopping me is the fear of talking to them on the phone. I just don't know what to do. Is it going to get better? I thought I was doing so well until now.
@powerfulSugar8787 I assume they know why you're seeing them, right? In which case they've also probably seen clients like you before and know what to do to make the time productive for you, and not merely terrifying!
It might help to think of their office as a special place apart from the real world, that is just for you, where nobody is going to judge you in anyway. When you are with your therapist, it is not possible for you to say the wrong thing. You can just be. They will certainly try to learn what you need, and they will help you come up with different ways of thinking about situations that cause you difficulty, and together you will probably work out ways of pushing your boundaries that won't always be comfortable, but which will remain safe.
Just think of this meeting as being all about helping you. It will be fine!