social anxiety ig

So ive always been not great at sociable things yk, like im an introvert. but recently everything has esculated and its like 100x worse than it usually is. im pretty sure i have social anxity but i have no way of getting it checked out because theres no way my parents would let me. at this point im just trying to hold on until i can move out and get it sorted, or start getting help or something. like i have convinced myself that im annoying to everyone, my friends hate me, people are judging me for every little thing i do. ive always been able to shake off these thoughts before but now its near impossible. i don't know what to do really. and how can i talk to my friends about it when my anxiety tells me they'll hate me even more and find me more annoying for dumping all my problems onto them. its so frustrating.