inability to communicate

Last year when I was depressed I tried to get help w my mental health and didnt really succeed because of my inability to communicate properly. Its so hard. Whenever I try to talk to my mum about a problem I literally cannot say anything, I breakdown and cry and try so hard to talk but its just non stop crying. My mum just stares at me like im an idiot and I would of thought she'd be able to empathise and realise im not mentally well but to her Im just weak. I remember her saying, "only people who are weak think like that" .. "you have to be strong".. I understand she means well but how can you expect someone to "be strong" when they dont know how. I love mum but her inability to understand defs has influenced the fact I havent bothered to reach out for help because I feel like in order for me to recieve help from the people who do understand, I have to get through to the people who dont understand (mum), hence why my mindset gets shitter ot. I think im just lost on what to do from here.