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i don't know what i'm doing right now

ElliotAnxiety27 January 22nd, 2020

Hey my name is Elliot and I'm new here.

I think I'm suffering from anxiety and maybe depression.

I'm really messed up right now. I might be pan and I might not be my biological gender but I don't know. My life is actually pretty great, so everytime I feel like this I feel guilty because I'm really lucky. I feel like I have no one to talk to about this irl. Also, everybody else on this site seems to have an actual problem, like bullying or something like that. I have nothing to justify my feelings and I feel really ashamed of myself.

I also feel like I'm closing myself off from all of my friends and family. Even my closest friend right now doesn't know about my darker personalities. My friends and sibling also joke around a lot. I know they're just joking but sometimes it actually hurts, like when my sibling says 'nobody cares' or my friends say things that used to apply to me. Sometimes I feel like they don't noticed I've changed and if they do they don't care.

Sorry, I don't even know what I'm writing. Nobody will even read this anyway. Sorry for wasting your time.

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luxx454 January 22nd, 2020

@ElliotAnxiety27 Hi Elliot, you do not have to be guilty about feeling anxious or depressed or sharing on here. Your feelings are valid and even I get anxiety and depressed over seemingly small things, but that does not mean either of us should feel guilty. We don't have to be happy all the time and often our feelings have reasons. Perhaps you feel anxious and depressed because you feel like your close friends do not see this part of you which makes you feel alone or that they say "nobody cares". Anyhow, I don't think you should apologize and instead I should thank you for sharing as it's relatable and I have felt those ways too. And it helps to accept that all of us feel down sometimes but that it isn't permanent and that you are fine the way you are