Worry and Procrastination

I have a lot of trouble procrastinating. I have been observing my thought patterns and behaviour for a few years now and my procrastination seems to come up when I run into a situation where I don't feel I can accomplish a task quickly and easily.

I think I practice avoidance behaviour when I feel a task is difficult or I am unsure about what to do next. This applies socially and professionally. The anxiety of not knowing what to do next is the feeling that I believe I am avoiding.

Even coming up with this theory and acknowledging this trigger point for my avoidance behaviour I find it very hard to sit with the anxiety and take things step by step to work through the process of doing something where I am unsure of whether it is the right way to do it, or if I will get the result I want.

In the past I would procrastinate and feel guilty and get angry and myself for "wasting time" but I have been getting better at acknowledging my behaviour and moving on. I am also getting better at acknowledging my progress with this behaviour pattern and I am grateful I have come this far with it.