Why is it back again !

Hello,

I haven’t posted much on here for the past month or so, and most of the reason is because my medication has started to really help me with my panic and anxiety. However, the past two days it has came back. I woke up yesterday feeling uneasy and anxious, but for no specific reason. Throughout the day yesterday it just seemed to get worse, then it went away almost completely at night.

Today was the same, I woke up feeling anxious and didn’t feel like myself. I felt detached from reality the entire day and felt as though a panic attack was going to come at any minute. Thankfully it never came. Now I’m getting ready for bed and I feel okay, not as anxious, but the anxiety that is there is because I don’t want to feel this again tomorrow. I don’t want to feel like all this improvement is just going to go away and I’m going to become a mess like I was. I’m also scared that this means I may have to increase the dosage of my medication, I don’t want to. If I had a choice I would like to conquer my mental illness without any medication.

Im just so worried about it all. I want my life back. I want to feel like myself again. I don’t know who I am, I feel detached from reality and I feel like this life I’m living isn’t mine. Like I’m just existing. I miss me.