Why can’t I stop being defensive
Today I did it again I overly defended myself on a simple issue that if I would just simply listen and reply with ok or I'll work on it. But instead it's excuse after excuse it's like diarrhea I can't control it. It really makes my partner feel unheard and uncomfortable telling me what makes them uncomfortable and I don't want to be this way. I struggle with acceptance issues and social aniexty self diagnosed too scared to go to a real doctor because it will comfirm my fear of being broken. But the anxiety came after I had my last child before that I was more so shy. But now I shake and sweat when talking to people and I have 0 friends because I don't engage with people fully if I do the shaking and stuff starts. Anywho does anybody struggle with being super defensive and how do you catch yourself before it starts.