Too anxious to move.
I've been swallowed by anxiety-turned-depression. It took me 4 days to take a shower that I really wanted to take. I sit here, hungry. Snacking here and there but I feel too overwhelmed to decide on and make a meal, even if it's just microwaving a frozen something. My cats litter boxes need to be cleaned and I REALLY want to do it for them but I've gotten behind and it feels like such a big task. I *know* in my logical mind that it's not impossible, but I just feel SO stuck. I hate this feeling. It's torture and so hard to crawl out of.
I live alone and can easily spend a week or more without direct human contact. I know that's part of the problem. I just wish I had someone here to be with me... They don't even have to help with the chores. I would just feel so much safer and more calm if I wasn't all alone.
I can understand. I live alone and when faced with all the chores I can find my place becoming quiet a mess. Like an awful mess. And my physical health can suffer too. I think it helps to capture that feeling of when you really want something. Food, a shower, whatever it may be. And then try to focus on it. Another tactic would be to survey your surroundings and pick one thing. Anything small or minute that is out of place and then putting it back to it's rightful place. When I feel isolated I like to go to the store, even to purchase something small to ensure I'm getting some interaction to help counteract that feeling of isolation.
Thank you @selfconfidentLemon370. I'm grateful that you understand but sorry that you manage a similar struggle. Thank you for these great tips. I was able to do quite a few things today, just going little by little. Nothing is fully complete but lots of things are better than they were yesterday. That helps me feel hopeful.
Thanks also for sharing about going to the story even for something small. I want to give myself permission to do that more often instead of convincing myself I have no reason to go out. Thank you for being here, Lemon!