So Tired of Everything
My social anxiety is severely impacting my school life. I can't form any new friendships or even become acquaintances with someone. My grades are plunging. I've dropped from A's to B's and they keep falling, despite my constant struggle to improve them. I can't work up the courage to go in for extra help. I can't work up the courage to tell my teachers when they put in a grade wrong. Even when they accidentally leave it blank, I'm too scared to tell them. I'm on three different sports teams and I know for a fact (not just magnifying it) that 90% of the people hate me. I stopped feeling real awhile ago and the only emotion I feel is anxiety. My religious faith is suffering as well- I haven't been to church in months. I still get nervous from church because I passed out there once in front of everyone (due to a mix of not eating and pneumonia) and they had to call an ambulance and carry me out. I can feel my life starting to slowly crumble around me.