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I was feeling better....but my Mom just triggered me badly. I have OCD. She knew it was a trigger, but thought I didn't notice. I knew she was also extremely tired. I went crazy on the inside. High level of anxiety with an attempt to calm myself; I tried to make myself understand that she didn't mean to hurt me, she's really tired....
Chaos in my mind.
It's just really hard to take a blow especially when you think that things are getting better and it hurts even more when the blow comes from someone you trust and love.
@Amidu
I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling anxious and chaotic. I'm glad you were able to come here to 7cups and verbalize a bit of how you feel. Journaling and writing things down is a wonderful first start. I can only imagine how you feel, but I hope to remind you that you have not lost all progress from one bad day. You are a conglomeration of moments and emotions, you are a beautiful and complex being that is still learning. Boundaries are important to have and resetting and reminding people of them is not a bad thing. Hope you continue to put yourself first.
