Newbie...My Story

Hi All,

I'm 26 Female AUS...anyways.

I first got anxious when i was just out of high school, it crippled me Just out of school new job new start ect.. It got so bad I resigned from both jobs and lived in my dark bedroom for 12 months...barely ate, didn't sleep...i'm surprised i didnt get hospitalised. I met my husband (reconnected over FB after school) and things got better with his support i fought it. Fast forward 7 years later... married with 2 children everything was going great anxiety rarely showed up..Until July 2018 i was on a train to meet up with my husband and the train ride was the worst out of nowhere sweatng, shaking, nauseated, tight chest.. you know. Since then i have been living with mr anxiety again...I have very rarely left the house in 12 months, all my habits are back ( i seem to get a little germaphobic, OCD, afraid to leave the house when my anxiety shows up) i carry about a comfort jumper in public and sleep with a comfort towel at night, im afraid to leave more than a 10km radius of home (i live rurally so town is 40kms away) i feel ill often (nausea, gut discomfort) this time around i have a family, i have a job (thankfully from home, but do have to pick up things ect occasionally) and i can't trap myself inside like this, it is putting pressure on my husband as he has to take the kids to school, get the shopping and other errands as well as work full time- its alot for him. I'm also sick of isolating myself from friends...often feeling lonely. I dont sleep to well, find it hard to settle and be awoken by a panic attack some nights. My usuall coping mechanisms just arent working this time around..and i'm too anxious to drive into town to see a Dr. I'm hoping i can even just get a kick start of what i should do on here to get things on track again.

Thanks for listening.