My Life Is A Bubble Because Of My Anxiety

Just as the title says..my life seriously feels like a bubble. Everyday things have become to hard for me to face. Some days i cant even go check my mailbox because the thought of having to go outside is too much. And that crushes my heart because I used to love being outdoors doing all sorts of things..or even just laying on a blanket and looking up to the sky watching the clouds change and shift into these beautiful shapes. But sadly i cant even enjoy that anymore.

I've found comfort in my room here lately, and i know that my anxiety will only get worse if i do this. But its getting harder to face bigger spaces and being out in the open..so my room has become my safe zone. I'm not sure how to really explain how it is for me but when i do venture out of my room its like even though I'm doing something or interacting with someone its like I'm surrounded by this bubble or force field. I feel like I'm not fully there and my mind goes 100 miles a minute with these pointless negative anxiety fueling thoughts that i wish i had a better control over but I don't. But I'm finding that this is happening even if i am in my room. I am not sure how to get a grip on this or why this is my life now. But i know that it is up to me to fix myself and that is scary for me for some reason.