I'm stuck
I'm at home with my parents while everyone I know is 10 hours away from me. Covid is keeping me from going back to school which is where everyone is including all my siblings. I'm also doing my final grad year in architecture so I have that on my plate too and no one to help me. I'm the only person in my class who is not going to be able to go to the studio for group discussions. We decided it was best for me to stay home since we wont have the stress of paying rent on our shoulders but I dont know what I'm going to do alone with my parents. I feel like I'm in high school all over again but without a support system. Like I'm seen as only child and I'm afraid that I am not growing up. I'm going to be trapped away from everyone I love. Not saying I dont love my parents but I cant just have them. I struggle with my friendships too. No one calls or holds conversations with me. I dont feel like I matter to anyone but I know I do I just struggle to remember.
@DYINGARCHITECT I can honestly say I am in a similar boat, my friend. My life fell apart 10 months ago, aged 30, and despite living away from home for 7 years, I had to move back in with my small family.
The loss of independence was hard to bear. I also lost contact with all friends I've made over the years (I've lived at 12 addresses in 2 different countries so it's hard to keep up). Then the pandemic hit and lockdown around 5 months ago.
It's been very painful to not really have anyone check in with me and see how I'm doing.
However, I'm so grateful for the 7cups community. It's been my only source of a support network.
I made 1 friend here I've never met.
And 1 lifelong friend I resumed contact with in my real life (by text message, due to pandemic) that I've known for 2 decades.
So I can simply say I relate to you. This is a difficult time for many. I'm sure there are millions facing a similar situation in the world right now due to this pandemic and otherwise.
I'm glad you are here. Well done for reaching out. I hope your situation improves.
Also, despite it not being 'ideal', I eventually became extremely grateful for the 10 months I have had living with family again. I got to know them all properly and our relationships improved much better, with greater all around understanding.
So I guess you have a choice of how to best handle this situation.
The forums here are great. The sharing circles also help for companionship. And when you can find a good listener, they can really feel like an old friend that we've never met.
We don't know how long this global situation will last. We can only learn from it.
