"I Get Overwhelmed"

“So just don’t get overwhelmed” is a good statement (for me) for about an hour before it all comes crashing back down on top of me and then and then no amount of “it’ll be okay” ever works until I fall asleep crying or have a break down in the bathroom. And what's bad is I can feel myself slowly going crazy and I just wonder when the day will be that I'll need a doctor to tell me that Ic an't be a person anymore. That I'll need to rely on someone for money or to take care of me. And I hate that idea because there's only one person I can realy rely on and they're suffocating from the same problems. I can't just rely on them, I need to take care of myself and I... Don't know how much more I can take.