How do I show people who I am?
To get to the point, i started noticing thateven my closest and longest friendships feel quite shallow and it feels like i cant truly talk to them about me, or i guess be myself. I kinda started realizing that im having a hard time really showing people who i am, whenever i talk to peeps I always am walking on eggshells, like they just annonced they're dog died or something, I kinda respond with what someone would want to hear than something organic i'd say. I don't know how to make deep connections, and im just way too scared ig to show ppl who i am, it was way easier IRL to do that, but even so i still had peeps i felt i was walking eggshells with. Now online its just im scared and i never really know who or what my personality is.
How do my peers do it? They can be as loud, bubbly, and rule breaking as they want sometimes but they always have a friend group to chill and go to the mall with and i wish i had that. To be honest even the teachers let them get off with stuff though mostly because they never listened but sometimes i just wish i had the type of fun stuff "besties" have. I kinda thought a long time ago i'll never be them and i dont understand how or what made them have friends so fast, its been like this since i was in elemantary. Also doesnt help how i always felt like an outcast.
@thoughtfulComputer9328
Hello there ❤
It was very brave of you to reach out and share your concerns with us on 7cups. Thank you for taking the time to do that.
Feeling like an outcast among your friends and feeling like you are unable to truly and deeply connect with others can be really frustrating, especially when you see your friends getting closer and doing stuff "besties" would do, it sort of leaves you feeling out of place. It seems like, although you have a lot of potential and determination to socialise and bond with others, somehow something stops you from doing so.
Moreover, it seems like you are having a hard time being yourself in front of others or your friends..and that must be hard to deal with. I'm sure you would like to express your interests and hobbies pertaining to your personality and self-identity. The fact that you decided to share this with us shows that you have a good amount of willpower to change things for the better and find ways to be comfortable with expressing yourself. Please do reach out to me or any listener here and we will support you through this 
